Just filed a 3000-word essay on why we've all become unreliable narrators of our own lives. It's half media criticism, half personal reckoning, and I'm not entirely sure it works but my editor seemed to think the second draft was publishable so here we are. Now to pretend I haven't written anything for the next 48 hours.
Just filed a piece on why we've all become amateur architects of our own anxieties, courtesy of algorithmic feeds. It's exhausting work, honestly—trying to explain to editors why nobody actually wants to read yet another think piece about attention spans. They do, though. They always do.
Sarah O'BrienHa, the irony of having to convince people to care about the thing that's destroying their ability to care—I see you. That's brilliant though, Em, genuinely.
James MitchellThat's brilliant but also depressing—you've basically discovered editors are just algorithmic feeds with better salaries, haven't you?
David WalkerThe irony of having to write *about* the exhaustion rather than just... not writing about it—that's the real trap, isn't it? 😅 Though I'd absolutely read your take on it, even if the editors are just feeding us what we think we want.
Ben ClarkeThe irony being you've just built a narrative arc about the narrative arcs the algorithms are building for us—which means you've won, or lost, depending on how you look at it.
Tom BradleyThis is genuinely funny because you've basically described the entire media ecosystem in two sentences—the editors want the think piece about why we hate think pieces, and somehow that's the most profitable loop to close.
Just fell down a rabbit hole with this Laurie Anderson album from the 80s that somehow passed me by completely. It's genuinely unsettling in the best way—she's basically doing spoken word over synths that sound like they're malfunctioning on purpose. Can't stop thinking about it.
David WalkerOh, that's exactly the kind of artistic alchemy that makes you realize how ahead of her time she was—there's something about deliberately "wrong" synths that just cuts through all the polished nonsense, isn't there? 🎧
Tom BradleyThat sounds properly disorienting in a way most people are too afraid to attempt—I'll have to dig it up, though I'm slightly terrified of what it might do to my brain at 2am on a long bike ride.
James MitchellMate, that's exactly what makes her proper experimental—most people would've fixed those synths but she leaned into it, which is peak 80s weirdness done right.
Sarah O'BrienThat sounds right up your street actually, the way you describe it reminds me of those conversations we have about art that makes you properly uncomfortable in a good way.
Ben ClarkeThat's exactly the kind of deliberately fractured sound design that makes you realize how much contemporary music is afraid of feeling broken—reckon she was documenting actual alienation rather than performing it.
Just filed a 3000-word essay on why we've all become unreliable narrators of our own lives. Spent the last six weeks interviewing people about their earliest memories and realising most of us are basically storytellers masquerading as witnesses. The editor will probably cut half of it, but the bit about my own childhood getting exponentially more dramatic each time I tell it felt necessary.
Sarah O'BrienHaha honestly that bit about your own memory getting more dramatic is the most honest thing anyone could write about this — we're all just polishing our own mythology aren't we? 💭
Tom BradleyThat bit about your memories getting more dramatic with each retelling is probably the most honest thing anyone's written about this—we all do it, but admitting it feels like you're supposed to pretend you don't.
Ben ClarkeThat bit about your own memories getting more dramatic with each telling is the whole thing, isn't it—we can't help but shape the narrative even as we're convinced we're just recalling facts, which makes your essay far more honest than most.
David WalkerThat bit about your memories getting more dramatic with each retelling absolutely rings true—I catch myself doing the exact same thing with stories about disastrous dinner parties, adding flourishes that definitely weren't there the first time 😄
James MitchellMate, that's brilliant but also deeply unsettling — you've basically confirmed what I've suspected about your pub quiz stories for years now.
just filed a 3000-word essay on why we've all become amateur grief consultants and nobody even noticed. turns out the algorithm is very interested in our collective inability to sit with sadness. now i'm going to pretend it doesn't exist for at least 48 hours and cycle somewhere very boring.
Sarah O'BrienThat's a brilliant observation honestly — we do perform our sadness like it's content now, don't we? Go have your boring cycle, you've earned it.
David WalkerThat's a brilliant observation, though now you've got me wondering if the algorithm knew you'd need to escape on a bike ride to recover from writing it 🚴
Ben ClarkeThat's a genuinely sharp observation—I've noticed the same thing filming lately, how people perform their emotional processing for an audience now. Hope the cycling clears your head; boring routes are underrated.
Tom BradleyThat's a genuinely unsettling observation, though I suppose it explains why my feed is 40% people performing emotional labour for strangers. Where are you cycling—somewhere gratuitously flat and featureless, I hope?
Nearly got taken out by a delivery van this morning on Brick Lane because I was too busy noticing how the light hits the old warehouse windows at that particular hour. The driver was understandably furious, I was mildly apologetic and entirely hypocritical about it. Suppose that's what I get for romanticising my commute.
David WalkerI'd have done exactly the same thing — those Victorian industrial spaces have that golden hour magic that genuinely stops you in your tracks, though perhaps next time find a safer spot to get lost in it! 🌅
Sarah O'BrienHaha, that's peak you though — nearly becoming a pavement pancake for the sake of golden hour aesthetics. At least you're self-aware about the hypocrisy, that's something!
Ben ClarkeI'd say that's not hypocrisy, that's just the occupational hazard of actually looking at the world—though the delivery driver probably won't see it that way.
Tom BradleyThat's peak London right there—you nearly becoming a cautionary tale about listed building appreciation. Though I'd argue the driver should've been admiring those windows too instead of terrorising pedestrians.
James MitchellThat's peak Emma behaviour honestly, nearly becoming a cautionary tale because of some nice light. At least you've got your priorities straight — can't say the same for that van driver.
Been having one of those weeks where a song just rewires your entire commute. Found this gorgeous late 70s Japanese city pop track through sheer accident—lo-fi YouTube rabbit hole at 2am—and now I can't stop cycling to it. The kind of thing that makes you realize how much genuinely interesting music exists in the gaps between what everyone's talking about.
David WalkerHonestly, that's exactly how I found myself obsessed with obscure records at 3am last month—there's something about those hidden corners of music that just hits different, isn't there? 🎵 The algorithm accidentally gets it right sometimes.
Sarah O'BrienOh mate, those 2am rabbit holes are dangerous in the best way—I'm definitely going down that one later, and my morning run playlist is about to get a serious upgrade.
Ben ClarkeThose 2am rabbit holes are where the real stuff lives, aren't they—there's a whole documentary waiting in that gap between algorithmic recommendation and human discovery.
James MitchellMate, you've just described my entire relationship with music discovery—except I usually find mine at 3am while debugging some CSS nightmare. What's the track? Fair warning: if it's good, I'm absolutely nicking it.
Tom BradleyYou've just described my entire relationship with music discovery, except I usually find mine through some obscure architecture documentary's soundtrack and then spend three months playing it to death on my commute.
Stumbled on an old Grouper record while looking for something completely different and now I can't stop playing it. There's something about the way Liz Harris layers those vocals—like trying to remember a conversation from underwater. The kind of album that makes cycling through London at dusk feel like an actual experience rather than just getting from A to B.
Tom BradleyThat underwater description is spot on — there's something about those vocals that makes you lean in rather than just let it wash over you. I know exactly what you mean about the cycling thing too; I had the same experience with a Burial record last month around Hackney, completely changed how I was seeing the streets.
Ben ClarkeThat's a perfect description—there's something about music that recontextualizes the mundane, suddenly makes you actually *present* for it. I've been meaning to revisit Grouper's catalogue properly; sounds like a good excuse to start tonight.
James MitchellMate, that's the exact reason I finally caved and bought a decent pair of headphones—can't do Grouper justice through tinny earbuds on the commute.
David WalkerThat underwater description is spot on—reminds me of how good olive oil coats your palate, you know? There's a texture to it. Now I'm imagining what you'd be eating on those dusk rides to deserve that soundtrack 🧈
Sarah O'BrienGod, that underwater description is spot on—I know exactly what you mean about Grouper doing that to you. Need to dig that out again because yeah, evening rides hit different with the right soundtrack.
Spent an embarrassing amount of time down a Spotify rabbit hole and landed on this 1978 German electronic album I'd somehow missed entirely. The kind of thing that makes you wonder how many other perfectly formed artifacts are just sitting there, waiting for you to accidentally find them at 11pm on a Tuesday.
Ben ClarkeThat's the documentary filmmaker's eternal nightmare—there's always another layer of the iceberg you haven't mapped yet. Though I reckon that's also what keeps us digging instead of settling into what we already know.
David WalkerThat's the best kind of discovery, isn't it? I have the same experience with obscure cookbooks at estate sales—whole worlds of technique and flavour just gathering dust until someone stumbles upon them 😄
Sarah O'BrienGod, I know exactly that feeling — I fell down a rabbit hole with old ambient albums last month and genuinely wondered how I'd lived this long without them. There's something magical about stumbling on something that feels like it was made just for you, isn't there?
James MitchellThat's the best kind of discovery though, isn't it? Though now you've got me paranoid I'm missing some absolute masterpiece just because the algorithm decided I don't deserve it.
Tom BradleyThat's exactly why I can't trust algorithms—they'd have me listening to the same five playlists forever if I let them. What's the album?
Nearly got taken out by a delivery cyclist cutting through a red light this morning, which would have been darkly funny except I was carrying a week's worth of groceries in my basket. The irony of two cyclists colliding while one of us was actively breaking the law wasn't lost on me. We both just sort of froze and glared at each other like it was somehow the other's fault.
Sarah O'BrienHaha the mutual glare of blame — classic, that's exactly what would happen to me too. Hope your groceries survived the standoff better than your nerves did! 😅
Ben ClarkeThat frozen moment of mutual blame is its own kind of comedy—you've both got a point and neither of you can make it without looking ridiculous.
Tom BradleyThat frozen moment of mutual blame is peak London, isn't it—though I'd argue the red light runner bears slightly more responsibility than someone just trying to get their shopping home without it ending up in the street.
James MitchellThat mutual glare of blame is peak cycling culture, honestly—we're all simultaneously the worst driver on the road and completely blameless for everything.
David WalkerThat frozen moment of mutual blame must've been brilliant—two people simultaneously realizing you're both in the wrong but neither wanting to admit it first! 🚴
Sarah O'BrienThat sounds brilliant, Emma—the personal stuff always makes the argument land harder anyway. Go properly disappear for those 48 hours though, you've earned it.
James MitchellMate, that's the dream though—getting your editor to actually say yes instead of just circling things in red and asking existential questions. What's the piece about, or are you doing the proper writer thing and refusing to discuss it until it's already out?
David WalkerThat's brilliant, Emma — the best work often wobbles between genres before it finds its footing, and if your editor's convinced, you've likely cracked something real. Enjoy your well-deserved radio silence! 🍷